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Jun. 2nd, 2006 @ 07:37 am A Week from Monday
Current Mood: busy
We are moving a week from monday... 10 days from now. I am horribly, incredibly, overwhelmingly behind. Today is field day at the little person's school, so I won't be doing much today in the way of cleaning/packing. ACK!!!!
I *am* excited about going. Just got the 3rd reference for the PhD program, so it's about time to start on the actual application, which includes 6 essays (did I say "ACK!!!!"?). I'm hopeful about what the future holds- just hope it all works out at least in the *neighborhood* of what we're planning.
Little person #1 is very excited to be going, even though I have NO CLUE about what I'm gonna do with her for the part of the summer when she's with us but doesn't have school yet. I guess we'll know when it's time. Little person #2 has acted out a bit at school but mostly seems to be taking things well. He knows that he's going to be visiting by plane and we'll plan on fun stuff with him.
OK, time to grab some breakfast and head out the door. Have to cheer on the student athletes :-)
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May. 12th, 2006 @ 07:39 am It ain't much, but more to come...
Current Mood: hopeful

If we consider moving to Philly a vacation, then...
Daisypath Ticker

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Feb. 12th, 2006 @ 08:41 am Pictures
I've had occasion to look through some old pictures lately - twice- and can't believe how revealing they were. Years of family photos with images of happy kids and a happy (now ex-) husband and a miserable me. Every time. Occasionally, I looked ok with just the kids, but mostly even in those it was hard to miss how unhappy I looked. Even when I was smiling- there was something behind the smile that told a different story. When we got to the recent (past few years) pictures, the look changed significantly. Before looking at all the other pictures, C commented on how much better pictures of me have been turning out lately, and once we looked at the whole collection, it's true. I look happy now, and happy makes for better pictures of NSE.

Friends who have known me for many years were not surprised when I came out. Nor do they blink an eye when I talk about how miserable and depressed I remember being for many years. In that case, how did the people closest to me not see it. How did they not feel compelled to reach out and try to help, to figure out what was wrong?

The past is the past, and it's best left there (aside from lessons learned, of course!). Mostly I'm just thankful for the love and happiness and peace I feel today.
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Feb. 6th, 2006 @ 08:58 pm My LJ entry for February
Current Mood: busy
I think about updating, but never slow down long enough to do it. Anyway, I have made it this long without any "is love" banners, but liked how this one turned out.
My own "personal" LJ love banner:


Who else is love?   
[info]pseudomonas me scripsit anno 2005
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Jan. 16th, 2006 @ 04:54 pm Fun, fun, fun
Current Mood: tired
2 trips to the emergency department this weekend. First one with C, next one with the little princess (who was vomiting blood... something most 7 year olds don't do).... Fun, fun, fun.

Everyone is essentially ok now, but still sick. They should quarantine this apartment.
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Jan. 8th, 2006 @ 08:50 am New Year's update, a week late
Current Mood: content
Current Music: "Goonies" on TV
Since I've done it every year, I thought I should post a little New Year 2006 update.
First, what we did on New Year's Eve. Since C and I spent a good deal of time trying to figure out what we did the year before, only to finally have the question answered by my LJ entry, I should mention what we were doing on NYE. On 12-14, C's sister had surgery. C drove to NoVA to be supportive, but ended up getting terribly sick. She was completely knocked out by whatever bug she picked up. I drove up to take care of her and drive her home. Three antibiotics later, we're back in NoVA for a post-Christmas visit with her folks (and to pick up her truck and drive it home).

C wasn't fully-recovered yet, and the trip knocked her out. We had a good time during the day, but we both wore out pretty early and spent lots of time trying to catch up on our rest so that we'd feel better. By New Year's Eve, about all we were up for was dinner out and then laying in bed together, watching movies as the new year arrived. Her dad was playing with the tiniest flare gun in the world, but at 11pm. Go figure, lol.

We drove home on Jan 1, as the little person had school on Jan 2. After just doing that car ride a couple of weeks earlier, I can honestly say that we're ready to stay the heck outta NoVa for a while.

Other items, in summary:

* Our relationship (C & me) is the most rewarding and wonderful thing I've had the pleasure to be a part of. Amazingly, even when I think things can't get any better, they do.
* #1 Son (lol- old person pop culture reference) is living with his dad full-time. This continues to cause a good bit of mom guilt, but he is doing much better for it and seems very happy
* Daughter is flourishing in school and socially. She's very happy and shows astonishing ability to learn and UTILIZE what she's learned.
* Final pet tally for 2005: 1 toy poodle, 3 cats (her two older ones plus a new kitty who is a fireball), and a tank of fish
* Sold the house this year and we're living in a nice apartment until we know where we're going next
* C currently has PhD applications out. Depending on the results of that, we may move to: Georgia, Florida, Pennsylvania, Mass., or DC. Stay tuned. When we know where/when, you'll know.
* I'm almost done with my degree, and should be finished by summer. Looking forward to finishing up and then taking it to the next level with graduate school.
* In a financially-horrible but personally-rewarding move, I quit my job just before Thanksgiving. Re-employed now, but flat broke, lol. The break has been VERY good for me. I've been incredibly burned-out with nursing lately and hopefully things will feel better now.
* C & I both traded cars. She dumped the sports car for a Toyota pickup. I traded the (cool but gas-guzzling and not very safe) Jeep for a Toyota Prius hybrid. I LOVE it. :-)
* Overall, I think I'm the happiest I've ever been. 'bout time, lol. Seriously, life is good.

OK, that's about it. All I can remember right now, anyway. See ya next month ;-)
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Dec. 15th, 2005 @ 03:43 pm I wasn't gonna do it...
Current Mood: amused
But who could resist these results? ;-)

Your Birthdate: June 1

You are a natural born leader, even if those leadership talents haven't been developed yet.
You have the power and self confidence to succeed in life, and your power grows daily.
Besides power, you also have a great deal of creativity that enables you to innovate instead of fail.
You are a visionary, seeing the big picture instead of all of the trivial little details.

Your strength: Your supreme genius

Your weakness: Your inappropriate sensitivity

Your power color: Gold

Your power symbol: Star

Your power month: January
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Nov. 25th, 2005 @ 08:54 am Day after Thanksgiving
Current Music: Cinderella on tv
I tried to update a couple of times this week, but either my computer or LJ's servers were weird, so nothing ever happened.
Hope everyone had a happy "we murdered tons of people in an attempted genocide while stealing their entire country so let's gorge our already-obese selves day"
I do enjoy the chance to cook for everyone (how weird am I????), but always feel a little bad about the "1984"-ish reworking of the history of our country. Just wish that my kids (along with everyone else) were not taught the same pretty-glossy-happy version that we've all been taught over the years. The truth is ugly, but should be told. Paraphrasing that famous quote- how we gonna keep our kids from repeating the bad stuff we did if we don't let 'em learn from it? I love the idea of having a day devoted to food, family, and love.... how 'bout we don't wrap it around that particular piece of history?

OK, enough soap-boxing. I didn't even know that was coming when I logged onto LJ. We did, btw, have a great day yesterday (except for the little one getting sick, but she tends to do that on significant days- especially when we have plans. ugh.). It was quiet and calm and involved no major catastrophes. Good stuff. And a far cry from the holidays of my extended-family, which have always been loud and drama-filled. I enjoy the break. C seemed to miss being around more people, so maybe we'll have to find some sort of compromise for next time. The food was fabulous, nearly perfect (except for 2 huge missteps involving a pie and the gravy, which tasted good but had a questionable consistency.... weird), and we definitely had some turkey-induced catatonia ;-)

After the little person went to bed, the other half and I watched "Foxy Brown"- definitely a holiday-flick and a don't-miss-it starring Pam Grier. The dyke bar, the penis in the pickle jar, and the gun skillfully-hidden in the 'fro were particularly stirring movie moments. We really did love this flick :-)

Time to get back to real life a bit today... schoolwork, cleaning, bills, etc.... Not much fun, but I'm gonna take it slow and warm up into it... no need to rush these things. ::smile::

-NSE
ps. for those interested, I did quit my job. the story is a bit involved, but i'll pop an email out to jane_q (and anyone else interested) about it soon. Or look for me on AIM- I'm around on-and-off.
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Nov. 17th, 2005 @ 09:50 pm Oh... and on a more serious note
Current Mood: exhausted
I think I'm going to turn in my notice at work. No, I have no other job opportunities lined up. No, I have not become independently wealthy. Yes, I should probably be more responsible.

BUT

I've been working for other people (family businesses aside- that started at around 6 or 7) since I was 14. I have NEVER left a job without having something else waiting for me. Never been less than 10000% responsible and upstanding and all of that. I've worked some jobs for YEARS after I hated it, just because I "should".

This new-ish place just isn't making me feel happy. And isn't that technically what that 90 day probationary period is all about anyway- a chance for the bosses to decide about you and for YOU to decide about them? Is there some reason that I should feel crummy when I go to work every day, and carry that home with me every night?

Dunno what I'll do for money, but hell, I'm a nurse- how hard can it be to find a little per diem work out there when I'm ready?

The end.
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Nov. 17th, 2005 @ 06:24 am Following Jane_Q's lead

You fit in with:
Humanism



Your ideals mostly resemble that of a Humanist. Although you do not have a lot of faith, you are devoted to making this world better, in the short time that you have to live. Humanists do not generally believe in an afterlife, and therefore, are committed to making the world a better place for themselves and future generations.


20% scientific.
40% reason-oriented.





Take this quiz at QuizGalaxy.com
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Oct. 10th, 2005 @ 11:43 pm School
Current Mood: exhausted
I hate higher education and everything it stands for.

(read that as "I'm up late doing yet another paper and REALLY want to go to bed right now")

The End.
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Oct. 9th, 2005 @ 07:38 pm Stolen from thefemmevixen :-) ... part deux
"If there is at least one person in your life whom you consider a close friend, and whom you would not have met without the internet, post this sentence in your journal. "

There was a time in my life that nearly ALL of my friends were people I met over the internet. It was my only source of socialization. Sad, but true. Now, the internet plays a minor role in my life, but a few people have remained my (real life) friends after meeting out in cyberspace. T, definitely glad we met and kept things going... this one should last years ::smile:: ; A, you know I love ya, darlin. Looking forward to retirement in the Fl Keys ::winks::; K, you and I don't check in that often, but I do my best to keep up and we WILL meet again :-) ; A few more, who do not read this LJ (and one or two that might, lol).... People look at me funny sometimes when I talk about this friend or that one that was met online, but I just see it as a tool to bring us closer (once, of course, you sift through to find the real treasures!).
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Sep. 28th, 2005 @ 07:54 pm Stolen from thefemmevixen :-)
Not entirely true- especially that part about not being "out of the ordinary" or "adventurous" (those parts are pretty much completely off)... but it was good enough to post :-)

The Romantic Lover

63% partner focus, 61% aggressiveness, 40% adventurousness
Based on the results of this test, it is highly likely that:



You prefer your romance and love to be traditional rather than daring or out-of-the-ordinary, you would rather pursue than be pursued and, when it comes to physical love, your satisfaction comes more from providing a wonderful time to your partner than simply seeking your own.



This places you in the Lover Style of: The Romantic Lover.



The Romantic Lover is a wonderful Lover Style, and is the hallmark of young love--the Romantic Lover often loves the idea of being in love, and being a wonderful lover, and so they try to bring their prospective partners every bit of joy or happiness that they can. They are the serenaders, and the ones to rent carriages in the park or take a gondola ride down a canal. The Romantic Lover is a treasure to find, though they sometimes are prone to being hurt if their advances are ignored or harshly rebuffed.



In terms of physical love, the Romantic Lover can seem shy, but usually it is simply a by-product of wanting to be perfect for their lover, and often needs some extra encouragement and re-assurance to truly feel at ease. Given a special, intimate evening, and the right lover, the Romantic Lover can be a delight in bed.



Best Compatibility can probably be found with: The Classic Lover (most of all) or the Suave Lover, or the Exotic Lover.



Congratulations!



If you enjoyed this test, I would love the feedback! Also, you might want to check out some of my other tests if you're interested in the following:



Nerds, Geeks & Dorks



Professional Wrestling




Buffy the Vampire Slayer




America/Politics





Thanks Again! -- THE LOVER STYLE PROFILE TEST










My test tracked 3 variables How you compared to other people your age and gender:
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 60% on partner focus
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 62% on aggressiveness
free online datingfree online dating
You scored higher than 15% on adventurousness




Link: The Lover Style Profile Test written by donathos on Ok Cupid
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Sep. 6th, 2005 @ 03:34 pm oh, and forgot to mention...
Forgot to mention in my previous post-

We rescued a puppy. A cute little cockapoo that's about 10-12 weeks old (birthdate May 1, you can do the math, lol). He belonged to a family that thought they wanted him, but realized that a puppy was too much work with their other obligations. So the poor little guy spent too much time alone, either out in the direct sun or locked in a carrier. We brought him home w/ us and we're putting weight on the little man and housebreaking him. He's responding well to all the attention, and has only had a few accidents in the apartment.

He's brilliant and adorable, but I'm still not sure if we can keep him. There is so much going on around here that I don't know long-term how this will work out. But in the meantime, we're considering ourselves a foster/rescue family, and just see what fate sends our way so far as a good family to adopt him.

whew. i'm tired, lol.
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Sep. 2nd, 2005 @ 01:54 pm Day-um!
Current Mood: optimistic
It's been a VERY busy week around these parts. Major events and life changes that have definitely made my (easily-confused) head spin, but I think that every thing that has happened has been for the better.

First-
Left my job. Started working there 2/1/99, so it's what I'm used to. But I couldn't deal with the hospital and that kind of patient care for much longer. Plus all the cattiness of working with the group of women I was working with just wore me down. I'm not that way, I don't like those games, and it made work a crappier place to be. I have a new job lined up, working Monday-Friday, 8-5, at a doctor's office. I'll be the only RN there, and this is a HUGE change in schedule, work style, and ... well... I dunno. Just a big change, lol. Looking forward to it, but a little nervous at the same time.

Next-
Sold the house. I'm officially no longer a homeowner as of a few days ago. I honestly can't believe that I'm never going back there again. This whole moving thing is really for real. Not that I didn't know that already, but when you hand someone your key and know that their stuff will be in YOUR house that night... weird. Bought the place in early '98, so again- big change.

It continues-
Car stuff. Candy sold her sports car and bought a pickup (Toyota Tacoma, for those interested). It suits her much better, and suits our needs wayyyy better than the car. While we were test driving vehicles for her, we tried out the Toyota Prius. It's a hybrid that gets somewhere around 55mpg (51hwy, 61 city, I think). It's roomy inside, looks funky outside, has a *ton* of standard equipment, and has a 5 star safety rating. Oh, and did I mention the FABULOUS gas mileage? With her getting the truck, we were officially car-less, and that made me think seriously about getting that Prius. I wasn't completely sold on it, so I rented the only one we could get our hands on. The day I was supposed to return it, I got a call from an excited salesperson, who told me they'd sell the car to me that day if I wanted it. 2000 miles on the car, and in perfect condition. It was an offer I couldn't refuse. Buying car seat covers for it today (gotta dress it up somehow!). I'll miss the fun parts of having the Jeep Wrangler, but won't miss that 14mpg, the lower safety, or having less room. I still think I'll end up with a Jeep again one of these days- maybe an old one that we can abuse :-)

Side notes-
Andrea started a new school. She's liking it pretty well, but there was some adjusting to do, including bus confusion one afternoon that ended with Candy chasing the bus down in her new truck to retrieve the little boogerhead :-) School for me is the same- busy, but not mentally challenging. It's more of a time-consumption issue than anything else. Turned in a crap paper Monday night just because I was so tired that I couldn't put two words together. Usually, though, even my bad papers get decent grades. Candy's still working on that thesis of hers, and we will most certainly celebrate when that thing is complete :-)

OK, gonna pay attention to this sushi while it's fresh.... Hope everyone enjoys their weekend.
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Aug. 23rd, 2005 @ 12:39 am Oops...
Current Mood: accomplished
Just missed the midnight deadline... Wrote 1360 words in 1 hour and 39 minutes though, and I think that's a personal record, lol. The instructor is in Texas, so I think she might be counting the midnight thing by her time, and if she is, then I made that midnight deadline by 21 whole minutes. Yay me! ::laughs::
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Aug. 22nd, 2005 @ 11:40 pm 20 minutes left
Current Mood: rushed
I've got 416 words done of a paper that should be around 1400 words. 20 minutes til midnight. Think I'll make it?

NSE
ps- I *so* didn't want to write this paper. The research was really interesting, but the last thing I felt like doing tonight was putting it all together for a grade. ::shrugs::
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Jul. 15th, 2005 @ 04:33 pm BWAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
Current Mood: entertained
This is is hilarious. Child #1 is here for a few hours and watching Spongebob Season 2 on DVD. I'm only paying half-attention, but this episode ("Procrastination") completely illustrates how I deal with school assignments. Spongebob isn't my favorite, but gotta love this episode. :-)
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Jul. 11th, 2005 @ 11:59 pm Done.
Current Mood: accomplished
Despite my masterful procrastination and terrible distractibility (and a major crisis involving my sister... ugh) and a few very nice phone calls from the other half (who is away right now, and will be for a few more days), both assignments are complete and turned in.

Tomorrow... that's school-avoidance day for real. No schoolwork, just time spent with the little person, who was a fantastic sport today and is looking forward to spending quality time with her mom tomorrow. :-)
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Jul. 11th, 2005 @ 11:49 am Ritalin, anyone????
Current Mood: distracted
I must be the most ADD person in the entire universe. Two assignments due by midnight tonight (tho generally-speaking I lose productivity around 10pm, so I SHOULD have them done by then). Set up coffeemaker last night so I could get a good start on them today- after I procrastinated all week and never even STARTED them (hell, I don't even know what one of the papers is supposed to be about). It's now noon and have I even STARTED anything? Of course not.

Instead, I've puttered around the house, occasionally cleaning something or unpacking things we can most certainly live without for another day (or month or year or forever), shopping for accessories for a computer that is still being built by Apple, watching TV with the little person, and just generally work-avoiding.

I KNOW I should focus on the task(s) at hand- I can get a lot done at this time of day. I just wish I could stay focused. That's really been a problem for me for a long time now anyway... tons of unfinished projects and such. I have great intentions but get sidetracked by the slightest things.

The other half actually DOES have some Ritalin. I'm just scared to try it on a day when I have so much to do. Just in case I don't actually need it (if you need it, it focuses you wonderfully and you don't feel weird. If you DON'T need it, it makes you shaky and weird-feeling).


Wish me luck. Or kick me in the ass to get me started... or something, lol.
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